Tonight’s Praise Gathering was good, strange as always, but good. Hmm… never know what God is going to ask you to do after you tell Him you’ll do anything…

Another strange thing. I checked this blog’s stats and saw that someone searched for “gracenalani + wordpress.” Someone googled my screenname in order to find my blog. My blog is a boring mix of to-do lists and lists I make when I’m bored. I know its a long shot, but I’m curious. If you were the search-er, could you comment and introduce yourself?

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Recently, I made two huge mistakes. I did something really stupid intentionally about a week ago. And I made a REALLY stupid mistake the other day accidentally. After both incidents, I couldn’t find comfort in the Lord. I felt guilty and I knew I didn’t deserve any comfort.

I have always found relief in the Lord. He is my refuge, especially in hard times. The difference in these situations was that the hard times didn’t come to me; I created them. This week, I have been faced with and slapped by the realization that I am human, I don’t deserve to know the Lord, and for some unknown reason He wants to know me even when I act so foolishly. I have also realized, yet again, that I am all-too-easily controlled by guilt and fear.

It is quite humbling to know that whether someone else creates a mess or I do it all by myself, God’s love for me does not change.

Is 43: “No one can deliver out of my hand. When I act, who can reverse it?”
Gal 1: “God, who set me apart at birth and called me by grace, was pleased to reveal His Son in me.”